On June 2, 2009, I'm in a mood.

I miss my family.

Today I watched a television show that I used to watch with my parents. It was the series finale, and at the end it goes four years into the future. At this point the main character has passed away, leaving behind his friends, his brother, his wife, and his three or four-year-old son. This made me very sad. I know it's just some ridiculous show, but I was saddened that this person, such a likable character, would not be able to see his son grow up. He won't be able to grow old with his wife. And I guess this is what makes me miss my family even more today.

My granddad did see his children grow up; he saw their children grow up, and he grew old with my grandma. But I guess that doesn't make it any easier. Today is my first June 2nd without my granddad. I keep thinking that everyday that he isn't here. Tomorrow will be my first June 3rd without him, and the days will keep adding up.

I'm in a mood, and it's making me think about what it is that I want. I'm realizing that it's a lot simpler than I thought.